Once again...i am

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

Well once again, I am stumble on my feet. It’s the same old story but this coming 2011, I decided to take control in my love life. My love is boring me to tears but well its ok, I’m not perfect and I’m not afraid to fall in love again, with the right person.

Bye bye ‘blue shirt’. I really liked you, but …

Anything, I appreciate it all, everything you done, even chasing me at the public asking my number. Seriously I don’t have a gut to do that when it comes to the person I really adore.

Dear Mr. John Lennon

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful



I am 24 this year, even though I never see you live, I always can fell you pure heart. I will continue your legacy to spread love this is my promise. At time I am writing this I listening to your ‘Imagine’. I hope many years to come, will born thousands of John Lennon. You thought me no racial, no war and no hatred. Your life story will always be my inspiration. I understand why the NWO have to kill you. They always don’t want to see the kindness of people, the positive message you bring. Look what happen to Lady Diana and Michael Jackson. Maybe next is Angelina Jolie or Oprah Winfrey, Who know?

From now on I will update my blog more frequently to spread love as much as I can before I die, which is I don’t know when. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe next month or maybe next 10 years. We are brothers.

May you rest in peace!

My close observation

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful


Alhamdulillah, so far this Ramadan I’m doing very well, and I’m not really put sleeping as my first agenda like years before. Well I guess I’m in a phase of life that I’m becoming more observant, more obedient, more humble and guess what, I’m becoming more religious. Allah has answered my prayer for me to be a better person. Yes, I’m not that perfect but I try not to hurt people so much even the animals and most importantly my mum. I matured too soon but I’m exposed far earlier than everybody at my same age.

As I look afar of my changes, I still can see the malay society has not change generally. They still mean to each other, bad mouth, backstabbing and greed. Well to say everybody in this world do that, but based to my close observation, every races in the world moves rapidly, but mot malays. I’m not sure to condemn my own races will be called racist? I don’t think so. I satisfy enough if I am being labeled as a deep thinker, well that really I am.

First thing first (just my opinion) the specialty of the bumiputera should be cancelled. The Malays always have been thought that they really need to be help. The slogan ‘Bantu Melayu’ or ‘Hidup Melayu’ have been installed in our mind. We’re not really that cheap or poor. We’re just lazy to move, because we been taught that no matter what happens we will be helped. Why don’t we just stand up and fight the obstacles, and choose our own destiny. The world achievers have learned this, choose and fight for it. How can we stand tall with other races if we expected for help all the time?

Part 2 coming soon.

Me and life

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful


It’s not too late to wish any of my readers (if have) Happy Fasting month of Ramadan. Nearly one month I didn’t update my blog, well I’m not lazy when it comes to writing. I just don’t have any interesting story to tell and due to my work discretion. I’ve been all around Malaysia from Perlis to Sabah for a month. I have met a very nice people, cute people, interesting people and not forget to mention a jerk. Well after a very close observation, I will put my boarder to not to get to close with this kind of people. This kind of people only brings discomfortness to everybody wherever they go. Well to behave and think wisely is a good thing that this kind of people needs to consider or else they become a loser for a lifetime (no matter whoever you think you are), people can sees that. Well said.

Well, hope this Ramadan means something for me. I change a lot over a year ago, to be a better person I must say. I feel really thankful for a past life that thought me a lot about people and their crap, the craziness and the beauty of life. I set my goal for years ahead for my life to be fabulous, really fabulous as life can be. Sound just like a big talk, but I know what I really wanted to, and to help people in need generally.

Enough said. I hope my wishes come true. Amen, love life, love Allah, love my family and loves people who love me.

My favorite classic quote

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful



Aku, pisau dan kata --
Kalian tahu, pisau barulah pisau kalau ada darah di matanya
tak peduli darahku atau darah kata

Sapardi Djoko Damono

Away from city mist

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

I currently at the Malaysia – Thailand boarder enjoying what life offers me and to love my job, that’s for sure. Sniffing sea breeze every morning refreshes me and inspires me to work harder and to contribute something for the Malaysian community generally. This Saturday I’m going to direct a video, even its not really big video, I hope I can sharpen my directing skill and perhaps will be notable Malaysian director who win awards at Cannes. It’s not just a talk, I really looking forward to it and all I need is break.

I away from a city mist nearly a month, travel all around Malaysia – ‘dari Perlis sampai ke Sabah’. Hoping I can see more people and listening to more dreams. I really need that to broaden my views, to be a better person and to be an award winning writer/director. Insha’Allah.

From me to you

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful


Sorry, I’m in a state that I like you so much but it doesn’t sound right. You just ended up your many years of relationship and I in love with my career. For me to being honest is another thing and I really don’t want to destroy our friendship. Yes, I’m trying to avoid you, I set my yahoo messenger and facebook to appear offline because I don’t want you to text me anymore even though to see you’re online brings a smile to my heart. It’s far from your fault, it just mines. Be a good person because I promise I’ll be one.

Into a bruise and the ignoring heart

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

There’s one feeling I always trying to avoid. As a typical Pisces, i become ultra sensitive and downpour fragile when it comes to the matter of heart. I’m not looking for any serious relationship but sometimes when I’m alone I think it would be nice to be cares by someone. Looking at my past relationships makes me very cautious to whom I may date to. Sometimes I become really impudent just to guard my heart – yes it breaks easily. Currently the feeling has come again and I don’t think it’s good for my rising career yet I’m very demanding. When something goes wrong, for sure my entire day goes wrong, and I won’t let it happen. So most of the time I choose to silent, sit back and relax.

‘There is actually no real man to be dreamed or hoped for, unless it’s arranged by FATE. So cherish your short moment with anyone u like be it 3years, 3 months, 3 seconds even....’ – Mama Regina

Strong resistance

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

I still on the chain reaction of fungus infection that cause bad allergic that leave the bad ugly rashes on my body. I have to be very cautious on my diet and if I slips a bit, the rashes getting uglier – and yes it did last Sunday. I must have no touch with eggs at all and I must not take seafood which is my guilty pleasure, for a moment. The result is I have to take a very painful and expensive injection for my skin getting better and to kill the allergens in my body. I did do cupping to improve my blood circulation and I hope it helps. So friends, I will not go out for a moment but just for work. I’m standing strong, move forward and nothing can stop me. Insha’Allah hope tomorrow will be better. Amin.

"BEAUTIFUL BELIEF"
If God answer your prayer, He’s increasing your faith.
If God delays. He’s increasing your patience.
If God doesn't answer, He does know u can handle!

Now we know their thinking level.

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

As a young boy and proud Malaysian, I’m really aware about political scene in Malaysia. I feel really ashamed to some people who called themselves as a ‘Pejuang Agama, Bangsa dan Negara’. Their behavior is not representing the beautiful Islam and Malay culture at all. How does it feel when their mother and their kids watch the video? They must have some sense of heroes inside of them that they didn’t break loose when they were a kid. Even my ‘Selipar Jamban’ looks smarter than all of them.

Kerana itu berpalinglah kamu dari mereka, dan berilah mereka pelajaran , dan katakanlah kepada mereka perkataan yang memberi kesan pada jiwa mereka.” (an-Nisaa’:63)

Dalam setiap jasad itu ada seketul daging yang apabila ia baik maka baiklah seluruh jasad dan apabila ia rosak, maka rosaklah seluruh jasad. Ketahuilah ia adalah hati. Dari hati yang baik akan terpancar wajah yang manis dan berseri. (HR al-lmam al-Bukhari dan Muslim).

I rest my case!!!

What’s in my mind?

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

I can consider today is a boring day. I got tons of work to finish but my body moves slowly and my mind mingling somewhere else. I got few packs of ‘Halls refreshment candy’ but I let my breath smell bad. I did browse all the websites that I know but none caught my attention. I did check my phone few times and I must admit I expecting something but I just not sure what it is. What’s in my mind??

Or I need someone to cheer my day??? Hope tomorrow will be better...

Crumble

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

It’s late of the night and I still trying to get over last night incident – the fight in the club that crumbles my first date (with someone 200% & my type and I really adore). Well, one door close, the others still open. But still forgetting is an issue.

We’re going well at the beginning, I can feel the love is in the air but it end up badly at the club when a drunken guy who is prominently show-off being rude and smear provocative words towards my date and he deserve a knock in the face. But I got the blame on what happening.

As I still in the state of shock, I mollify myself by lying half naked on my bed while listening to Adele’s Make You Feel My Love.

I'm Back

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

Hie Folks,

It’s really a long time I didn’t blogging since my life has turns upside down but now it seems quiet good and I moving on to be a better person. This is my second blog actually, why I decided to open a new one and close the old is simply because my old time are quiet playful and didn’t serious to anything in a simple word I’m a baddie or desperate – I didn’t want to look back for sure and I make my past as a guidance, how to lead a gorgeous life (I use gorgeous instead of good because I believe, that’s my life should be). I feel really blessed to surround by a good friends who I like to call them an angels.

Currently I’m working as a creative writer at event/advertising/production company; yes writing is my scope of job since that’s my greatest capability instead of flirting. I feel blessed once again to have surrounded by a cool people in the company. There’s no pressure and stressful at all and that how the entertainment business should be. If ‘rezeki’ by my side, I aimed to be a film director in 5 years time. I’m 24 already and I want all my aspiration to be achieved before 30’s, its sound tough, but nothing can stop me.

I’m still maintaining my single status as my career rising. I just need to learn how to balance between relationship and career seems both its quiet important to me. I’m not a working freak, but it takes time for me to find a right person – if it happens, it happens.

Well, I think that enough for my first posting, I shall write 3 times a week or daily – depend on my mood or availability.

So happy reading and welcome back to ME!!!