Once again...i am

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

Well once again, I am stumble on my feet. It’s the same old story but this coming 2011, I decided to take control in my love life. My love is boring me to tears but well its ok, I’m not perfect and I’m not afraid to fall in love again, with the right person.

Bye bye ‘blue shirt’. I really liked you, but …

Anything, I appreciate it all, everything you done, even chasing me at the public asking my number. Seriously I don’t have a gut to do that when it comes to the person I really adore.

Dear Mr. John Lennon

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful



I am 24 this year, even though I never see you live, I always can fell you pure heart. I will continue your legacy to spread love this is my promise. At time I am writing this I listening to your ‘Imagine’. I hope many years to come, will born thousands of John Lennon. You thought me no racial, no war and no hatred. Your life story will always be my inspiration. I understand why the NWO have to kill you. They always don’t want to see the kindness of people, the positive message you bring. Look what happen to Lady Diana and Michael Jackson. Maybe next is Angelina Jolie or Oprah Winfrey, Who know?

From now on I will update my blog more frequently to spread love as much as I can before I die, which is I don’t know when. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe next month or maybe next 10 years. We are brothers.

May you rest in peace!

My close observation

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful


Alhamdulillah, so far this Ramadan I’m doing very well, and I’m not really put sleeping as my first agenda like years before. Well I guess I’m in a phase of life that I’m becoming more observant, more obedient, more humble and guess what, I’m becoming more religious. Allah has answered my prayer for me to be a better person. Yes, I’m not that perfect but I try not to hurt people so much even the animals and most importantly my mum. I matured too soon but I’m exposed far earlier than everybody at my same age.

As I look afar of my changes, I still can see the malay society has not change generally. They still mean to each other, bad mouth, backstabbing and greed. Well to say everybody in this world do that, but based to my close observation, every races in the world moves rapidly, but mot malays. I’m not sure to condemn my own races will be called racist? I don’t think so. I satisfy enough if I am being labeled as a deep thinker, well that really I am.

First thing first (just my opinion) the specialty of the bumiputera should be cancelled. The Malays always have been thought that they really need to be help. The slogan ‘Bantu Melayu’ or ‘Hidup Melayu’ have been installed in our mind. We’re not really that cheap or poor. We’re just lazy to move, because we been taught that no matter what happens we will be helped. Why don’t we just stand up and fight the obstacles, and choose our own destiny. The world achievers have learned this, choose and fight for it. How can we stand tall with other races if we expected for help all the time?

Part 2 coming soon.

Me and life

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful


It’s not too late to wish any of my readers (if have) Happy Fasting month of Ramadan. Nearly one month I didn’t update my blog, well I’m not lazy when it comes to writing. I just don’t have any interesting story to tell and due to my work discretion. I’ve been all around Malaysia from Perlis to Sabah for a month. I have met a very nice people, cute people, interesting people and not forget to mention a jerk. Well after a very close observation, I will put my boarder to not to get to close with this kind of people. This kind of people only brings discomfortness to everybody wherever they go. Well to behave and think wisely is a good thing that this kind of people needs to consider or else they become a loser for a lifetime (no matter whoever you think you are), people can sees that. Well said.

Well, hope this Ramadan means something for me. I change a lot over a year ago, to be a better person I must say. I feel really thankful for a past life that thought me a lot about people and their crap, the craziness and the beauty of life. I set my goal for years ahead for my life to be fabulous, really fabulous as life can be. Sound just like a big talk, but I know what I really wanted to, and to help people in need generally.

Enough said. I hope my wishes come true. Amen, love life, love Allah, love my family and loves people who love me.

My favorite classic quote

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful



Aku, pisau dan kata --
Kalian tahu, pisau barulah pisau kalau ada darah di matanya
tak peduli darahku atau darah kata

Sapardi Djoko Damono

Away from city mist

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful

I currently at the Malaysia – Thailand boarder enjoying what life offers me and to love my job, that’s for sure. Sniffing sea breeze every morning refreshes me and inspires me to work harder and to contribute something for the Malaysian community generally. This Saturday I’m going to direct a video, even its not really big video, I hope I can sharpen my directing skill and perhaps will be notable Malaysian director who win awards at Cannes. It’s not just a talk, I really looking forward to it and all I need is break.

I away from a city mist nearly a month, travel all around Malaysia – ‘dari Perlis sampai ke Sabah’. Hoping I can see more people and listening to more dreams. I really need that to broaden my views, to be a better person and to be an award winning writer/director. Insha’Allah.

From me to you

In the Name Of Allah, the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful


Sorry, I’m in a state that I like you so much but it doesn’t sound right. You just ended up your many years of relationship and I in love with my career. For me to being honest is another thing and I really don’t want to destroy our friendship. Yes, I’m trying to avoid you, I set my yahoo messenger and facebook to appear offline because I don’t want you to text me anymore even though to see you’re online brings a smile to my heart. It’s far from your fault, it just mines. Be a good person because I promise I’ll be one.